#1 In some culture, people seem to be tolerate towards uncivilised and ugly selfish behaviours that’s because they also want others to tolerate their ugly behaviour for their own convenience they want every body just allow them to perform in any way they want, in the public, that kind of pubic nuisance in their eyes are FREEDOM. This is nonsense if any civilised society no one abide the unspoken social norms or any stipulated rules which only makes the whole entire society unliveable, an environment everybody sobatages each other anyone has sense would all agree such society is the worst form of all, in such lowest moral standards if not hell what is it?
#2 How not to give fucks? How do I ignore these people who cut queues, make noises in the public etc. I don’t think I can. It feels like a responsibility, a duty to inform uncivilised ones to behave appropriately. How not to react immediately, and how to deal elegantly is a subject.
#3 Fasting is healing. I don’t do it on purpose but when I’m busy I always end up skipping breakfast and lunch. It feels hungry but I eat well after that fasting. Sometimes I do think what if the entire world only speaks one language? Wait, even everybody speaks the same language their accents… Today I had a call with a woman obviously from India…the listening was tough, was unpleasant and torturing. I hope people can speak proper English I would really appreciate.
#4 Even family members you need distance. And let it be. My father is the most reliable person in my life. Never was my mom, I have to admit she is not a qualified mother, but I can’t abandon her or be estranged from her, it’s a stress to need to include her. Only solution is to distance myself from my parents but also do what I think is right. Do the right things and put up with them.
#5 Asians born in America, also indians born or raised in Singapore, are interesting it’s like different races mixed well in some environment different from their parents or ancestors. And the way they talk or the style are unlike a typically Chinese or Indian.. like a new landscape …the most awkward thing is you geographically in a different continent but you still act like someone from outside the space..this incoordination is painful to look at and only causing nuisances. It doesn’t really apply to one’s language competency but more about something internal. You can speak fluently but still feel like someone awkward…Having your own accent, or even the volume of your voice and stuffs just personal identity. Nothing to judge about.
My conclusion is that most people have somewhat a set of rigid mindset, this is just downright toxic. You have people are very native instead they’re humble and with good manners this is absolutely attractive would make you feel to learn from them or to assimilate into their culture. But the toxic type of people are exact those arrogant and closed minded beings. Spot one, distant… Block or move them out of the sight. I can’t stop them coming around but I can protest in my own way. They’re unwelcomed and destructive.
#6 You finally made your mind…came to me, start to tell me your background. You spent a lot of money on that day to like make others jealous. You told your family was actually living in somewhere a big city in America and went on explaining you actually didn’t want to be American, even started to complain. You never was this clear about your intention, I was so assured. But does all these matter anymore. When timing had already been past. The approach once would matter immensely, once needed the most. A candid and honest you. Will for me or this is just the end already.
#Update on my miserable life [Cry] it’s been one and half month the noises from my upstairs…I’m now really sensitive to any sudden sound I wear earplugs during my sleep which I hated it but had no choice [Cry] yesterday I finally reacted I used the yoga ball hit the ceiling for couple of times I had a small palm sized one you need to put in a bag and hit I did every time they moved the chairs or tables..bc that’s just not normal..started around 8:30pm to train their muscle memory so everytime they move I hit and not sure the part I hit what was inside the ceiling got really strange sound… I had to evaluate to choose where to hit which was relatively safe. But they also reacted and they went crazy, I heard people running, walking back and forth loudly and keep making all types of noises…was totally a mess and just pure revenge [Facepalm]I didn’t know they would went crazy…I didn’t react after like from 10pm but they didn’t stop until close to midnight. Morning I woke up like 7+am a bit later I heard their noises again… Then during the day I was absent I was expecting they would continue the noise after 6pm or something but they went silent…like died not sure was absent or what or someone else reported them … because they are loud and with zero manners. Yesterday I ordered a wireless speaker in case I’ll need it I was like if they continue I play it during the day I can listen to music or watch movie, leave there and I do my own stuffs I also had designed a playlist for them.
Meandering leads to perfection 